
How did you know you loved daddy B3 asked me.
We were lying in his bed me on my side facing him.
Well I felt happy and safe I said.
That’s how I feel with you mummy he replied softly in the dark. Is that how I will know with someone else he said because they will make me feel happy and safe.
Perhaps its different for everyone I said.
Did it take a long time he asked?
No, I said when I met daddy I knew almost straight away in fact I can tell you the moment I knew.
When he said excitedly like we were sharing a secret.
Well, Mummy was sitting in the chair at Nanna and Poppas place you know the one closest to the front door I said.
Yes, he said. I could feel him nodding and could hear the smile in his voice.
Well I was reading a textbook on the brain because I was studying psychology then and daddy he was writing on the floor. We were not talking just doing our own thing when this song came on the radio called ‘One night a day’ by a country singer called Garth Brooks. Daddy used to listen to lots of country music then. I could hear myself simplify it right down for the understanding of a six-year-old because telling him his father was just meant to be a three-week fling may not come out right but that’s how it started out he was just meant to be fun no strings attached. Typically I wasn’t looking for anyone or anything I was happily living the single life.
So Daddy got up from the lounge room floor and asked me to dance and so we did. We waltzed around nanna and poppas living room and so I knew then and there that I loved him and it was pointless pretending any different.
We had been seeing each other for just three weeks but I knew. At the time I felt scared because three weeks seemed crazy. It was such a short amount of time but I felt safe. I felt happy and that feeling has never gone away. I think about that all the time when daddy is at work how he makes me feel and I listen to that song all the time to. I could feel smile coming as I said it.
I never hear the song he said.
I know I listen to it in the car I said smiling back at him. Where mummy first kissed daddy and I think about that all the time too.
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