Hmmmm….FIFO husband has been home four weeks theoretically he should be going back to work 24 of May but last week the office called he is not due to start his new swing until the first week of June….they think…hmmm that is approaching the most amount of time ever spent together. This could present a couple of problems. My brain and my heart is on one hand excited…FIFO husband home for six whole weeks…yeah ha but then the fear of being together that long..well gosh..we might just start to fight and then there is the fact my secret life of keeping appearances will be harder to maintain.
Damn you Indian ocean.
We don’t fight we bicker, then he sulks and ignores me and that that drives me freaking insane. I hate it. All that moody quietness in this big old house. The kids don’t know we keep it from them and then that makes it worse. Drives me nuts. Because all I want to say to them when the say where is daddy..all I want to say is your daddy is a jerk. But you cant. I cant. Its frustrating. Then after its all said and done there is no apology even after we have sat down and chatted about the bickering, sulking and eventually me loosing the plot over the sulking and ignoring. Perhaps actually I know I make it worse after all I’m a seeker.
The most time we have spent together is ummm…eight or twelve weeks I’m not sure. I’m sure though it was bliss infact I know it great and I’m sure that this will be bliss.
I’m sure..I will start to panic come first week of June and he still here…panic only because well how can I sneak to and from the beautician when he is here? Im due to go end of the week. There are tell tale signs of having been there…redness and swelling…secrets will be revealed..damn it.
Perhaps I can fake an accident..?
No seriously its bliss and Im loving every moment of it.
XX Deb