Since yesterday. I’m back. My head is clear and I have a little more passion for this FIFO life of mine. Give me something and I can do it. I’m on my way. I feel almost bipolar…lol…(without making fun of the bipolar) the change is that dramatic. I am worried by the complete turn around in my head. Yesterday morning I was anxious, uptight, annoyed and overwhelmed. Today nothing. Should I be worried? Its a little disconcerting but last week was a crap week it really was and if I’m honest the week before that and the week before that. Having your husband and mother home doesn’t always make it easier just busier more chaotic.
Last week was TWO sick kids…damn day care bugs, three runs to the city, specialist appointments for B3, one ahem run in with my adorable mother, then negotiating with said mother and added guilt of run in, one flooded shop, add to that several days of feeling ripped off, ticked off and just a little bit selfish. Four days of kids inside because the rain was to heavy and to cold to go outside and play. Combined with several days of being behind on the washing, ironing, mopping and general housework because of said TWO sick kids. I was on a downhill somewhat self inflicted roll going fast without a breath.
Yet isn’t it funny how just when you don’t think you can keep your head above water any longer a saving grace arrives and allows you to take another breath. Mine was my neighbour and her daughter. They took my boys and played all day. It gave me time to catch my breath and whilst I didn’t lounge around all day like a lady of leisure I got the job(s) done. I had a day without being at someones beck and call and it was good. No it was great. It was what I needed to give me a detour from what was waiting for me down the road and around the corner.
I promise though (well I will try) its the last time I complain..someone told me its not the right thing to do its not elegant its not lady like..who wants to read my issues…but that’s me. This is my FIFO life, its real and it happens I dont believe I’m any sort of princess. I do believe I do one hell of a job ‘usually’ however your ‘advice’ is dually noted and I will reign it in. Lets pretend everything is all right…just for people like you. Just so you know I write this little blog of mine because I thought it would be helpful for others in my situation. If you aren’t a fan of my reading about my demise don’t read it.
However for the lovely emails and comments that where left I thank you. You don’t know how much they made my morning reading them. For you I send you all my love.
So have a lovely Monday my friends,
xx Deb
