Your distant these past few days he said. Whats up? He called me this morning on the way to the city.
I don’t know I said. I’m just off. Sleep I said. It was a tough month I finished with.
Do you need those meds he said. We never talk about those med’s. Its been a long time since those ‘meds’. But when I needed those meds I scared people. Myself included.
No I don’t need those meds I said. I don’t need them I am just off. I’m not sure what it is. I’m just off. Give me a couple of days.
Okay a couple of days then we check again.
Okay.
Okay.
Love you husband for taking such good care of me. For noticing I’m off, giving time and space to work it out myself but wanting to help me fix it all the same. Yet I know myself well enough now that I know I am just off every one has an off day or two. Everyone. Its how long those ‘off’ days continue that make the difference.
So for anyone that’s having a whole lot of consecutive off days days; off days that are going on for more than a week more than a couple of weeks please see you GP to help you find out the cause of your ‘offness’ it could be as simple as an iron difficency, a need for sleep or perhaps a little chemical imbalance in the brain called depression or exhaustion sometimes they are confused for each other. Both however can happen to anyone who looses too much sleep and doesn’t get enough rest most timesits brought on by being a parent. And if its Depression its nothing to be afraid or embarrassed of its just another illness that requires medical treatment sometimes short term sometimes long term. Depression is nothing more than a chemical imbalance in the brain which is why it changes you but its nothing to take lightly depression can be terminal.
So if you’re a little ‘off’ and have been for a little longer than a couple of days and you cant pin point why please see a doctor because we all want you to be yourself and not a little off.
Big love
x Deb
