So FIFO husband has left for a five week swing after being home just two weeks. He accepted the job without asking me, without discussing it with me, to say I was and still am a little annoyed is a understatement. He has never done that before and I kept my annoyance to myself until I couldn’t contain myself any more. I literally exploded with a fury of expletive and fists.
Why? Why did you do that? I’m not ready for you to go yet? I’m tired. He didn’t have an answer well he did just not one I thought was good enough. I’m not sure any answer he gave me would be good enough then or now.
I dropped him off at the airport yesterday at 4.30am we had to leave home at 2.30am to get him to his flight. Where he was headed to Bali to collect his vessel where he will then go to Singapore. Bali then Singapore. Miles from me. Miles the kids. Miles from whinging, complaining, cranky, sick and tired kids. Miles. Its also exotic, different and not here. I know that in between he is working hard and all that rubbish but still Im cranky.
Can you guess I still haven’t got over my annoyance and I’m yet to work through ‘my resentment’. Resentment that’s what my mother called it and oh and that he is a man after all. I dont buy it.
What did I say about exit strategies?
Will let you know how I go with working through ‘my resentment’.
Have a wonderful Monday friends
xxDeb
Hang in there Deb. I would be MIGHTY PISSED too. Any chance of calling in extra babysitting just for a few hours once a week so you can go to the movies or just “hang by youself” and enjoy the peace? You’re good only feeling resentment, me thinks I would be seeking revenge (ie. trip away BY MYSELF when he is next back so he can take the load….) yeh, I know, not nice but still real and VALID ! Thinking of you. Mez xx