Its my last day of no children. Tomorrow I hope aboard the Red Kangaroo and I’m away. I have enjoyed the week. Most of what was on my list is done, Im happy and I have learnt somethings about myself and life.
What I have learnt the most is exactly how much I miss out on and I guess that goes for my husband to because of this FIFO life and the FIFO kids. Simple fact is we don’t have family support here. They are here but not you know what I mean? So Im going to try to find myself an extra sitter we deserve that we work hard. I do have my wonderful neighbour but I never want to take her love and generosity for granted. I’m going to build a better FIFO support system for myself and if I could can everyone thats in this FIFO life.
Now the things I’m talking about being able to do are (I’m not talking about going out and parting all night) being able to go to the public pool and doing laps (one of my favourite exercise), or taking my beloved dogs for a walk in the daylight (currently I literally run them around the block a dozen times at 430am whilst the kids are snoozing) both of which I have done everyday and have loved and missed. Catching up with a non kid girlfriend. I know I can do these things with the kids to some degree but thats the not the point really. Dont judge me. I dont get alot of time on my own. I dont ask for alot of time on my own. I dont want a lot of time on my own. Just a little.
I have so enjoyed this time. I have struggled with the quiet. I have felt lost. I have had to remember what I like to do to fill the free hours I have had. I have remembered alot. If I was a stranger Id want to be my friend I think?..lol. Im thankful for everything I have. Really thankful and Im looking forward to the what the future brings. I feel rested well and I have learnt things about myself that Im not proud of, really not proud of and Im determined to change them.
Have I missed the boys? No I have thought of them alot. I have thought how blessed Iam and how the hard work has paid off. I am ready for them to come home. Im looking forward to seeing them. I cant stop thinking of their little quirks and it makes me giggle. I appreciate them.
Last time the boys went away for a period of time I remember on my last day thinking no can I have just one more day? This time Im happy, Im looking forward to seeing them infact I cant wait. Im smiling on the inside.
Thank you my friends your visits, have a great Saturday,
xxD
